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  <title>today's the tomorrow..</title>
  <subtitle>...we worried about yesterday</subtitle>
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    <name>&lt;3abs</name>
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  <updated>2006-02-05T17:51:44Z</updated>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2006-02-05T12:41:00</title>
    <published>2006-02-05T17:51:44Z</published>
    <updated>2006-02-05T17:51:44Z</updated>
    <lj:music>start of something new</lj:music>
    <content type="html">so life is okay..&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;gardes were pretty good...i was happy. here's what i had&lt;br /&gt;gym...A&lt;br /&gt;chorus...A&lt;br /&gt;english...B+&lt;br /&gt;freshman seminar...A&lt;br /&gt;geometry...A-&lt;br /&gt;so other than stupid english i was happy...even though a B+ in't bad but still..it made me angry..for my finals i got a B in geometry, but i got a C- in english which is probly y it took me to the B+. but yeah.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so friday i hung out with elizabeth and katie..it was very fun and wonderful. we pretty much laughed the entire time:)&lt;br /&gt;saturday i had stupid showchoir for actor singers. then i had to come home and clean my room. today i have a birthday party for my cousin.. then we're staying over there for most of the super bowl. then school monday. i havn't decided if i want to switch spanish classes or not. i hafta talk to my guidance couselor but yeah. my lunch sucks cuz of that class so i'm still debating.&lt;br /&gt;and the valentines dance is coming up on friday i'll probly just end up going with friends unless someone asks. but i doubt anything will happen. but w/e i'll have fun anyways.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;comment!&lt;br /&gt;&amp;lt;abs</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2006-01-30T21:18:00</title>
    <published>2006-01-31T02:23:44Z</published>
    <updated>2006-01-31T02:23:44Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Beautiful</lj:music>
    <content type="html">so i absolutely HATE!!! my new classes.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;the class that i have the most people in only has 3. and it's 3rd period so i have a wicked sucky lunch. since i'm in spanish we're in the junior wing, so in the entire lunch, you could fit all the freshman at one table. and it could be one of the round ones...it wouldn't even have to be a long one. i'm thinking of switching out...not sure yet.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i don't get to see anyone other than the few people in my classes. some people in-particular.&lt;br /&gt;so yeah....i am VERY upset about this 2nd semester.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i'm thinking about changing my sn to: IfOnlyXXO&lt;br /&gt;or something like that. give me your thoughts please.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;comment!</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2006-01-27T16:06:00</title>
    <published>2006-01-27T21:13:43Z</published>
    <updated>2006-01-27T21:13:43Z</updated>
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    <content type="html">very bad day today.....&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;the classes kinda suck..excluding like 3 people...&lt;br /&gt;then i heard that some plans were getting screwed with..i wasn't very happy..i was looking forward to them.but w/e&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;---considering everything thats happened, i'm probly just going to give up on someone&amp;lt;3..people are coming in, and  doubt anythings going to happen when they're around so yeah. life sucks.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;comment if you feel like it....i don't really care right now.</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2006-01-26T18:21:00</title>
    <published>2006-01-26T23:32:30Z</published>
    <updated>2006-01-26T23:32:30Z</updated>
    <lj:music>start of something new</lj:music>
    <content type="html">hey..so i havn't updated in a while....&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;finals were pretty good...i don't think i failed them but i know i most liely didn't get an A. i'm VERY sad that gym and english are over. the english class itself sucked but the people in it were amazing:)...but gym deffinetely tops everything. i am very excited that we had 3 out of the 4 days this week as early release:).and tomorrow we start our 2nd semester...so far i only have 1 person i think per new class that i have...which is better than none but i hope i see more:)...&lt;br /&gt;yesterday i went out to eat with rona and elizabeth...it was wicked fun:)..i havn't seen them in like forever.&lt;br /&gt;today me, katie, julie, and dani went to see team 2 at EMS. it was deffinetely wicked fun:)...we sat in on mr. a's class for a little..then went and watched the dinosaur movie with mr. fro:)...it was wonderful:).then we went down to bruger king..(saw nick s., and jared there)...then wwe walked back to elm st. and tried to get a visitors pass to go in the building but they wouldn't give us one....so we kinda just walked downstairs and said hi to ms. shea. then said a quick good bye to the teach's and walked back to katie's house...(it was unbelievably cold!)....so we played shout about music and movies....it was wicked fun!...&lt;br /&gt;now i'm home and hanging here for the night..tomorrow is a new semester..and a half day.(as i said before)...then the dance...probly going out to eat with some people before-hand...thats gonna be fun:)&lt;br /&gt;so over-all things have been pretty good...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;some certain people are making life kinda sucky but i can take it/them..haha...i will over come and win:)...hopefully&amp;lt;3.lol&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so yeah...coment!&lt;br /&gt;&amp;lt;3abs</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2006-01-11T19:17:00</title>
    <published>2006-01-12T00:26:03Z</published>
    <updated>2006-01-12T00:26:03Z</updated>
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    <content type="html">hey everyone...&lt;br /&gt;so this week has been pretty good....not many people are very into spirit week..lol...today was nice tho.&lt;br /&gt;early realease and it was pajama day, which made me happy. i wore my big fuzzy pink slippers and pajama bottoms which made it very comfortable. but then i had to fricken come home and babysit sam &amp;gt;:0. that was agravating... but yeah. other than that the day was okay..but also&lt;br /&gt;today i had a paper due for english...and i told my teacher yesterday that my printer was like pretty much out of ink and he said just to put it on a floppy and bring it in to print it. so i did but when i went down to the library there weren't any open computers cuz there were two classes in there. so i went back up to his room so that i could just give him the disk so he knew i did it and wouldn't get points taken off. but then he was like.. "no. i need the hard/final copy of it." so then i was like trying to tell him that i just wanted to give him the disk so he knew i did it but he just kep repeating "no. i need the hard copy. just get it in to me asap"...then he shut the door in my face. fricken so i'm going to be VERY angry tomorrow if he tells me i'm getting points taken off.&lt;br /&gt;other than that the day was good. we figured out our rooming situation for montreal. it's going to be me, katie hoff., becca and laura. so it's going to be fun:)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;other than that. this week is pretty so/boring. we have finals soon which i'm dreading. the first day of finals i have geometry, then english. but then the second day i get a break cuz i only have gym and chorus/fresh sem...so yeah. not really looking forward to that but w/e.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;comment!&lt;br /&gt;&amp;lt;33abs</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2006-01-08T14:46:00</title>
    <published>2006-01-08T19:57:18Z</published>
    <updated>2006-01-08T19:57:18Z</updated>
    <lj:music>digits</lj:music>
    <content type="html">so the past week wasn't very exciting...not too much stuff going on. right now i'm spossed to be finishing my english paper on charles dickens but i have a block and don't feel like finishing. yesterday i went to the library to get books for my essay...i saw nick running down the sidewalk racing some other people i think.. not really sure:p.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so now we have titanium prctice on mon. and fri. ugh!..not looking forward to it at all..no idea why she had to pick friday but thats okay. we pretty much suck at you can't stop the beat. we learned footloose and in one day we are much better at that than beat tell me y that is?..haha..but yeah..our concerts at the end of the month:/&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;next week is spirit week..hopefully that'll be cool. monday's jersey day but i don't have any jersey's so i'm just gonna skip that one.&lt;br /&gt;then tues. is decade day...i was thinking of wearing my poodle skirt since it's from a decade but i want other people to wear somthing so i don't look like a loser:p.&lt;br /&gt;wed. is pajama day:)...i havn't picked wich pants i'm gonna wear but i'm deff. wearing something..lol&lt;br /&gt;thurse. is dress up/dress down day...the kids dress like teachers/techers dress like kids...i don't think like anyone is gonna do that one..haha... but yeah&lt;br /&gt;then fri. is blue and white day...then we have a pep-rally...that'll be cool i guess&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so yeah...nothing else really happening around here..&lt;br /&gt;comment!&lt;br /&gt;&amp;lt;3abs</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2006-01-01T19:09:00</title>
    <published>2006-01-02T00:14:31Z</published>
    <updated>2006-01-02T00:14:31Z</updated>
    <lj:music>americas funniest videos</lj:music>
    <content type="html">HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;hope everyone had a happy new year last night:)..i celebrated with becca and molly at beccas house:)..it was deff. wicked fun...we hung with our wonderful movies and buddy was very clingy/angry at us cuz we took over his couch downstairs but then we left.&lt;br /&gt;becca.."now you can't take a sip until 2006"..&lt;br /&gt;molly.."no. you hafta wait until midnight"&lt;br /&gt;wow. i love molly to death:)..&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so right now i'm at my cousins..going home soon to hang with elizabeth, rona, jessica, and brittany.....gonna be very fun:)..&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;hope everyone had a fun 2005!!:)...make 2006 a good one!&lt;br /&gt;comment please!:)&lt;br /&gt;&amp;lt;3abs</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2005-12-31T14:22:00</title>
    <published>2005-12-31T19:28:27Z</published>
    <updated>2005-12-31T19:28:27Z</updated>
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    <content type="html">hey everyone!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so tonight is new years eve:)..i'm hanging out with becca, molly, and maybe kaitlin.it's going to be very fun:)...&lt;br /&gt;i'm bring this new game i got for christmas. Mad Gab!..anyone know it?..it isn' very new i don't think...it's very fun to play....&lt;br /&gt;it gives you a saying(for instance) "Abe Who Beat Wrap"....and you say that over and over again until you sound it out to say the actual saying which is..&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"A booby trap"&lt;br /&gt;it's a wonderfull game:)...some plans for tomorrow then back off to school:(...&lt;br /&gt;i wish we had a longer vaca. but what can you do?.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;comment please!!:)&lt;br /&gt;&amp;lt;3abs&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;ps.&lt;br /&gt;if anyone wants to make plans to see the producers like tomorrow afternoon or something please call/talk to me:)</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2005-12-27T19:58:00</title>
    <published>2005-12-28T01:02:40Z</published>
    <updated>2005-12-28T01:02:40Z</updated>
    <lj:music>ipod</lj:music>
    <content type="html">hey everyone&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i was just looking at poeples profiles and you know what i noticed?....almost every girls pro out there has stuff in it about how there's a guy they like but they're still waiting for him, or the guy they like is with another friend.or something like that.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;it's just an observation, and it' includin my pro to so i'm not saying it's dumb, it's just kinda funny if you think about it. it's almost like every girl in the world right now wants a guy they can't have.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;comment if you know what i mean..&lt;br /&gt;&amp;lt;3one of those girls out there</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2005-12-26T21:42:00</title>
    <published>2005-12-27T02:56:52Z</published>
    <updated>2005-12-27T02:56:52Z</updated>
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    <content type="html">MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;it was deff. a happy one for me:)...had lots of fun with all the family and presents and what not.&lt;br /&gt;here's what my holiday consisted of....&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Christmas eve...went to my aunt's house with my entire moms family. that was wicked fun cuz my mom's from a family of ten.. and most of her siblings(aunts and uncles) are married so i have like 40 or so cousins. it was crazy fun:).plus a lot of my cousins are older so there where like 5 extra people in the house. it was very interesting....so we exchanged our secret santa gifts..i got a striped scarf from AE and a Ralph Lauren sample perfume box thing...i was extremely happy....then we came home and my sis put out food and milk for santa..with some raindeer food outside..then we went to bed.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Christmas day.....woke up around 7:30ish cuz my family is crazy like that..lol..went into the living room..opened stockings/presents&lt;br /&gt;what i got..&lt;br /&gt;that new radio that you plug your ipod into to listen to without earphones:)&lt;br /&gt;new straightener&lt;br /&gt;many clothes&lt;br /&gt;AND&lt;br /&gt;my dad had set up this WICKED fun treasure hunt for me and my sis..it was unbelievably exciting:)..not gona lie.i was literally running through the house from clue to clue..at the end ther was $100(shopping?)&lt;br /&gt;some other presents from the fam..etc.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Later that day....went to my aunts with my dads side of the family..not as large or fun but it was still okay:)...hung out there for the day and celebrated. then came home and checked out some of my presents..&lt;br /&gt;i straightened sam(my sis)'s hair(it's normally almost as curly as kati jette's)...it looked kinda cute. it wasn't perfectly straight but it was a big difference....also played around with my new radio/clock.it's pretty cool&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so that was my christmas..hope everyone else had fun:)&lt;br /&gt;comment please!!!&lt;br /&gt;&amp;lt;3abs&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;ps..i had a dream last night that kinda opened my eyes to something..and i don't know if i'm happy or sad about it. most of you will find out tho so don't worry:)</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2005-12-19T21:17:00</title>
    <published>2005-12-20T02:19:28Z</published>
    <updated>2005-12-20T02:19:28Z</updated>
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    <content type="html">Please read this..it's s true and most can probly relate........&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;To every girl that is herself no matter what.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl that dresses cute not skanky&lt;br /&gt;To every girl who wants to be called beautiful not hot.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl that will spend her whole day looking for the perfect birthday present for you.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl who gets her heart broken because he chose the whore instead.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl who is nice to everyone no matter who they are.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl that would die to have a decent boyfriend.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl that wont settle for the jerk.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl who would just like once to be treated like a princess.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl that cries at night because of another heartbreak.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl that wont get down on her knees and open her mouth just to get a boyfriend. &lt;br /&gt;To every girl that just wants to holds hands.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl that kisses him with meaning.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl who just wishes he cared.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl who would just once want a guy to give their jacket up when they are cold.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl who just wants him to call.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl who wastes her day waiting by the phone.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl that just wants to cuddle.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl that just wants to sleep (not have sex) with him.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl that is scared to put her heart out there again because she has been hurt so many times.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl who shows how much she cares and gets nothing back.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl that thought maybe this could be the one.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl that believes in her dreams.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl that would do anything so she could achieve them.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl that laughs at stupid stuff when she actually does think it is funny.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl who is just looking for that one and only and is having a rough time along the way.&lt;br /&gt;To every girl that gave her heart only to have it shoved back in her face.&lt;br /&gt;..this is for you:&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;To the nice girls who are overlooked, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looks and their personalities and their actions because it must be them that are doing something wrong. This is for the girls who don't give it up on the first date, who don't want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for a story they've heard a thousand times. This is for the girls who understand that they aren't perfect and that the guys they're interested in aren't either, for the girls who flirt and laugh and worry and obsess over the slightest glance, whisper, touch, because somehow they are able to keep alive that hope that maybe... maybe this time he'll have understood. This is an homage to the girls who laugh loud and often, who are comfortable in skirts and sweats and combat boots, who care more than they should for guys who don't deserve their attention. &lt;br /&gt;This is for those girls who have been in the trenches, who have watched other girls time and time again fake up and make up and fuck up the guys in their lives without saying a word. This is for the girls who have been there from the beginning and have heard the right words of advice, from "there are plenty of fish in the sea," to "time heals all wounds." This is to honor those girls who know that guys are just as scared as they are, who know that they deserve better and are seeking to find it.This is for the girls who have never been in love, but know that it's an experience that they don't want to miss out on. For the girls who have sought a night with friends and been greeted by a night of catcalling, rude and explicit invitations that they'd rather not have experienced. This is for the girls who have spent their weekends sitting on the sidelines of a beer pong tournament or a case race, or playing Florence Nightingale for a vomiting guy friend or a comatose crush, who have received a drunk phone call just before dawn from someone who doesn't care enough to invite them over but is still willing to pass out in their bed. This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first blonde girl in a skirt. This is for the girls who have been told that they're too good or too smart or too pretty, who have been given compliments as a way of breaking off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only wanted as a friend.This one's for the girls who you can take home to mom, but won't because it's easier to sleep with a slut than foster a relationship; this is for the girls who have been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with. This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart and bed, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over her, he's just not looking to be tied down; this is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone. This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too cavalier to have cared in the first place; this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech, for the nights when you've returned home alone, for the nights when you've seen from across the room him leaning a little too close, or standing a little too near, or talking a little too softly for the girl he's with to be a random hookup.This is for the girls who have endured party after party in his presence, finally having realized that it wasn't that he didn't want a relationship: it was that he didn't want you. I honor you for the night his dog died or his grandmother died or his little brother crashed his car and you held him, thinking that if you only comforted him just right, or said the right words, or rubbed his back in the right way then perhaps he'd realize what it was that he already had. This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after failing to sleep.This is for the "I really like you, so let's still be friends" comment after you read more into a situation than he ever intended; this is for never realizing that when you choose friends, you seldom choose those which make you cry yourself to sleep. This is for the hugs you've received from your female friends, for the nights they've reassured you that you are beautiful and intelligent and amazing and loyal and truly worthy of a great guy; this is for the despair you all felt as you sat in the aftermath of your tears, knowing that that night the only companionship you'd have was with a pillow and your teddy bear. This is for the girls who have been used and abused, who have endured what he was giving because at least he was giving something; this is for the stupidity of the nights we've believed that something was better than nothing, though his something was nothing we'd have ever wanted. This is for the girls who have been satisified with too little and who have learned never to expect anything more: for the girls who don't think that they deserve more, because they've been conditioned for so long to accept the scraps thrown to them by guys. So don't say you're on the lookout for nice girls, guys, when you pass us up on every step you take. Sometimes we go undercover; sometimes we go in disguise: sometimes when that girl in the low cut shirt or the too tight miniskirt won't answer your catcalls, sometimes you're looking at a nice girl in slut's clothing - - we might say we like the attention, we might blush and giggle and turn back to our friends, but we're all thinking the same thing: "This isn't me. Tomorrow morning, I'll be wearing a teeshirt and flannel shorts, I'll have slept alone and I'll be making my hungover best friend breakfast. See through the disguise. See me." You never do. Why? Because you only see the exterior, you only see the slutty girl who welcomes those advances. You don't want the nice girl.. so don't say you're looking for a relationship:**relationships take time and energy and intent, three things we're willing to extend - - but in return, we're looking for compassion and loyalty and trust, three things you never seem willing to express. Maybe nice guys finish last, but in the race they're running they're chasing after the whores and the sluts and the easy-targets... the nice girls are waiting at the finish line with water and towels and a congradulatory hug hoping against hope that maybe you'll realize that they're the ones that you want at the end of that silly race.</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2005-12-18T13:23:00</title>
    <published>2005-12-18T18:31:46Z</published>
    <updated>2005-12-18T18:31:46Z</updated>
    <lj:music>christas cds</lj:music>
    <content type="html">sorry i haven't updated in a while..&lt;br /&gt;nothing really new happening in school.&lt;br /&gt;we had the chorus concert on tues. i think it went pretty well....some people in the class were the most imture idiots i've ever seen cuz they wouldn't fricken stut up but w/e..the show must go on..lol..&lt;br /&gt;the concert itself went well..one song was a little screwed up at the end but what can you do. everything else went fine:)&lt;br /&gt;snow-day friday!...again.we had a snow-day on fri. i was wicked pumped. too bad it was pretty icey tho...that night i slept over elizabeth's.. that was pretty fun:)...i hadn't seen her in a while so it was wonderful.&lt;br /&gt;then sat. i babysat 2 of my cousins(luke, and trevor)..while my other two (julie, and ellen). came and hung out with me...(sam was there too)...cuz our parents were at the christmas party with the rest of the aunt and uncle family.then me, sam, julie, and ellen came back here and slept over. it was okay.&lt;br /&gt;today i think i'm going shopping. but not sure yet.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;ONLY 6 MORE DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS EVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!&lt;br /&gt;i personally can't wait because i love christmas:)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;please comment!!!:)&lt;br /&gt;&amp;lt;333abs</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2005-12-07T18:11:00</title>
    <published>2005-12-07T23:18:34Z</published>
    <updated>2005-12-07T23:18:34Z</updated>
    <lj:music>circle of life:)</lj:music>
    <content type="html">hey everyone:)..&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so this week has been pretty good...i was pretty stressed with my math proj. and tracka dnstuff but now i'm good..&lt;br /&gt;i quit track cuz i wasn't really enjoying it very much and they were gonna switch me to distance which i really don't like. plus i have actorsingers and i'd rather commit myself to that then track.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;today early release which was wonerful...me laura and katie went to visit everyone at elm st. and it was wicked fun:)..we saw mr. fro, ms.gaffney, and mr.a...he said that this year was a let down and that last year was the best:)..not even lying that's like exactly what he said..that was pretty fun..."that looks like crap on a stick!"..haha...i heart katie:)lol&lt;br /&gt;then me and katie came back here and hung out till 5ish when she had to leave and go to her dress rehersal...go see the play on the 8,9, and 10th...it sounds very good:)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;now soon i'm going out x-mas shopping with my dad and sis for mi madre...it'll be okay. hopefully we find something good:)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;comment please:)&lt;br /&gt;&amp;lt;3abs</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2005-12-04T21:25:00</title>
    <published>2005-12-05T02:34:53Z</published>
    <updated>2005-12-05T02:34:53Z</updated>
    <lj:music>television</lj:music>
    <content type="html">so the past like week or so has been okay....&lt;br /&gt;some stuff happened but nothing to talk about....&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;on Sat. we had Actor Singers Show Choir auditions:).....it was wicked fun...i sang a whole new world from aladdin cuz i'm boring like that:)..but w/e....&lt;br /&gt;the dance we learned was flipping amazing..haha...it was wicked fun:)....it was too that version of jingle bells that was like swing-ish...it was cool&lt;br /&gt;then me and katie came back to my houe and worked on our math projects...they take forever&lt;br /&gt;then these to little kids came cuz we were babysitting and they stayed the night..they got picked up around 12:30ish today...then i did some of my proj. but didn't finish it...and of course it's due tues. so yeah&lt;br /&gt;tomorrow i have titanium..then i go right to track..then i come home.i hafta finish my math proj. with the paper...and do any other h/w i have.&lt;br /&gt;i personally can't wait for wed. early release cuz i am oooo stressed right now...and some other suff happening&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;you know when you have a problem and it's nice to talk to a guy about it instead of one of your girl-friends?..well what if the guy you wouould trust talking to is the one that is part of the problem?....ugh...thinking about that...some other stuff too but w/e&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so i'm still deciding whether or not i should do track...since it's every day after school and stuff it'll be kinda hard but yeah...contemplating on that..&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;comment some suggestions on anything:)!!!--much appreciated&lt;br /&gt;&amp;lt;3abs</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2005-11-29T18:45:00</title>
    <published>2005-11-29T23:53:35Z</published>
    <updated>2005-11-29T23:53:35Z</updated>
    <lj:music>one short day</lj:music>
    <content type="html">ok...so not too much going on&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;we started track yesterday....and it's kinda hard..lol...&lt;br /&gt;we ran in the dark/rain yesterday....and did some other stretches and crap...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;today i went to the sprinting workouts...it was more difficult...&lt;br /&gt;we ran a 400.500.300.200-those pretty mcuh sucked....and i had hurt my ankle a little in gym so yeah...other than running a lot it was fun...it was really warm out so it was nice to run in...&lt;br /&gt;then we went in and did hurdles and shot-put&lt;br /&gt;-hurdles...i love hurdles and i was doing fine getting over them(they were at the lowest setting)...then i misstepped and went over with my left foot and did a face plant on the gym floor...that hurt like a bitch..but the guys track was laughing so i didn't show it:)...i wanted to fricken yell at them soo bad but the coaches were there so yeah...then i got a like floor burn/cut on my hip...it hurt a lot..cuz my clothes were touching it o it was stinging..lol..&lt;br /&gt;--then we did shot-put...it was fun but the ball weighs 8 pounds...yeah...it like barely fit in my hand...lol....but i threw it pretty good i think:)...at least for me..haha&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so yeah...i'm sore now but not unbelievably..hopefully it will get easier quick:)...&lt;br /&gt;comment please:)&lt;br /&gt;&amp;lt;33abs</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2005-11-27T16:23:00</title>
    <published>2005-11-27T21:32:15Z</published>
    <updated>2005-11-27T21:32:15Z</updated>
    <lj:music>I'm not that girl</lj:music>
    <content type="html">so last night was the holiday stroll.....&lt;br /&gt;it was pretty fun..there were a lot of people there, nothing VERY imporatant happened.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so the guy i like was there, and it was fun at first cuz we were hanging out and things were going pretty good the friken other people showed up(don't wanna tell names) and he went with them cuz they were all pissed he wasn't hanging out with them...so fricken that sucked a lot..i wanted to punch them in the face unbelievably hard but i didn't cuz i don't wanna make it a big deal. and o top it off they were fricken like hanging all over them and he says they don't like him but i personally think at least one does so yeah.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;other than that the night was fun....&lt;br /&gt;me, rona, tom, elizabeth, jessica, sarah went to the vietnam noodle house...ahgahaghag.....that was wicked funny...elizabeth drank an entire pot of tea..lol...."my esophagues is burning!!"...haha...that was wicked funny...&lt;br /&gt;then we walked around until like 9:30ish and there was like no one left cuz they're all wimps and couldn't stand the cold..haha.....&lt;br /&gt;so yeah...nothing alse to report&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;comment please!!!!&lt;br /&gt;&amp;lt;3abs&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;ps. sorry katie!!...i didn't get your message untill the next morning:(...next year your deff. coming with me tho:)</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2005-11-24T21:21:00</title>
    <published>2005-11-25T02:25:52Z</published>
    <updated>2005-11-25T02:25:52Z</updated>
    <lj:music>pon de replay</lj:music>
    <content type="html">HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!!....&lt;br /&gt;it deffinetely added to the happiness of the day with SNOW!!!!!!....&lt;br /&gt;that was deff. awesome to wake up to(at least for me)....&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so today was okay...nothing really special cuz my dads family was here...they're kinda boring but yeah....&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;sat. night's the winter stroll...i can't wait...i think it's wicked fun...it's probly gonna be pretty chilly tho..lol...so yeah...noothing really special other than that..&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;comment please!!!!&amp;lt;3abs</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2005-11-23T18:20:00</title>
    <published>2005-11-23T23:23:59Z</published>
    <updated>2005-11-23T23:23:59Z</updated>
    <lj:music>defying gravity</lj:music>
    <content type="html">pretty good week...it was only 2 days..&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;we didn't really do anything...watched a movie in gym..."miracle"...&lt;br /&gt;didn't do anything in ny other classes..&lt;br /&gt;RONA'S BIRTHDAY WAS YESTERDAY!!!!!!(sorry i didn't post:(&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;nothing else really....&lt;br /&gt;today i went shopping with katie:)....she got x-mas stuff for her mom...&lt;br /&gt;i got a shirt and sweatshirt from aropostale...only 25 for both..haha...great sale...&lt;br /&gt;katie did some crazy shopping for herself that loser..lol...love you katie:)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;other than that..nothing special...going to see harry potter with her soon</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2005-11-21T21:50:00</title>
    <published>2005-11-22T02:51:26Z</published>
    <updated>2005-11-22T02:51:26Z</updated>
    <lj:music>lose control</lj:music>
    <content type="html">i think certain people need to shut the fuck up and grow up....</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2005-11-01T19:31:00</title>
    <published>2005-11-02T00:36:01Z</published>
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    <lj:music>lean on me</lj:music>
    <content type="html">VOTE FOR ME FOR CHORUS PLEASE!!!!!!:)...haha....this only obtains to people in the north chorus class with me:)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;thank you.....much appreciated:)&lt;br /&gt;&amp;lt;33333&lt;br /&gt;abs</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2005-10-19T20:18:00</title>
    <published>2005-10-20T00:30:51Z</published>
    <updated>2005-10-20T00:30:51Z</updated>
    <lj:music>'my hump'</lj:music>
    <content type="html">hey everyone....sry i havn't updated in like forever...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so nothings really happened&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;yeah..so the rest of that week was kinda boring..then sat. i went to my aunts to have this dinner party thing cuz my uncle's up from florida..then i went shopping and got some shoes and a sweatshirt(not very successful)&lt;br /&gt;sun. i worked on my math project which came out pretty good but it was kinda boring&lt;br /&gt;mon. nothing really happened..found out some stuff about the movies on sat., that was pretty funny&lt;br /&gt;tues.um....cn't remember:)&lt;br /&gt;wed..went halloween shopping:)...that was amazing...got some pretty cool pics on molly's phone with some costumes:)....they had really good costumes in the adult section but they were kinda bad;)...so yeah...i got one ...it's like a witch crossed with a balerina..cuz it's a good wich costume but instead of a regular bottom to the costume it has like this black tutu with a pink rim...it's really cute:)..i'm happy&lt;br /&gt;tomorrow...i don't think anythings happening.not sure tho&lt;br /&gt;fri...i might be sleeping over my cousins but i'm not sure cuz my parents oare going to a wedding ad aren't gonna be back till sun...and they're leaving wicked early sat...so i'm not entirely sure whats happening....hopefully i'll be going somewhere sat. instead tho;)..but i still hafta talk to my aunt&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so yeah..thats pretty much my life&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;o!!!i almost forgot&lt;br /&gt;I MADE TITANIUM!!!!!!:):):)that was awesome..it took her like 3 weeks to get the list up but it is now...don't know when the first thing afterschool is but thats okay..&lt;br /&gt;i've also decided to do winter and spring track&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;comment please:)&amp;lt;3333333</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2005-10-12T15:36:00</title>
    <published>2005-10-12T19:45:55Z</published>
    <updated>2005-10-12T19:52:01Z</updated>
    <lj:music>nothing</lj:music>
    <content type="html">ok...so last night was probly the shittiest night in the world...i'm not going into details....so yeah....then in made today feel like crap&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;it started out bad....poor nika got screwed up this morning and thought we had to go to school at 8 instead of leaving at 7 like we normally do...so i couldn't wait for her...so apparently she came to school in like sweats and a t-shirt and was late to 1st block...:(..poor nika:(...then i didn't get to talk to her during the day when i really needed to..plus i didn't know if she needed a ride home so we almost got stuck behind the buses but didn't thankfully.....so yeah..&lt;br /&gt;chorale was wicked cool today.&lt;br /&gt;"she sounds like and italian you spent her entire life in germany"&lt;br /&gt;wow...mika is so cool:)..&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;yeah..so overall the day was okay...i think this morning was an omen since it was ll dark and gross out...becca know :)...love you guys!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;comment or not</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2005-10-11T16:07:00</title>
    <published>2005-10-11T20:11:26Z</published>
    <updated>2005-10-11T20:11:45Z</updated>
    <lj:music>ipod</lj:music>
    <content type="html">sorry i havn't updated in a while..yeah&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;nothing's really happened..well..actually...stuff probly has i just can't remember..but w/e.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so yeah...this weekend i'm maybe doing something with nick, spaz, maybe some other people..don't know yet...BECCA ISN"T COMEING...haha..yeah she's mean..she threw her binder at me and it hurt my pinky:(&lt;br /&gt;so yeah..nothing else really exciting that i can remember......ryans birthday was yesterday..it deff. sounds like he had a good one:)..&lt;br /&gt;yeah...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;comment please:)</content>
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    <title>b_e_e03 @ 2005-10-03T21:07:00</title>
    <published>2005-10-04T01:18:41Z</published>
    <updated>2005-10-04T01:18:41Z</updated>
    <lj:music>rent</lj:music>
    <content type="html">OMG!!!&lt;br /&gt;i can't describe how much fun young americans was:)!!they are the coolest people in the world....&lt;br /&gt;me and lanea and becca are trying out when we're seniors:)..i hope we make it....&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I MISS MAVRIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!that guy was the coolest person ever...he was so nice and he actually like hung out with me and stuff at lunch unlike the other ya's who didn't sit with you...but w/e...they're all still wicked cool and wonderful....i miss them all soooooooo much.&lt;br /&gt;mavric was deff. the coolest kid ever&lt;br /&gt;titus was wicked nice and as crying at the end cuz he didn't want to leave..and he's hott:)&lt;br /&gt;ross is deff. the hottest guy ever..he's from england and i wanted to bang him so bad!!:)&lt;br /&gt;birdy was cool and had really nice muscles..i got to dance with him during this swing thing after ghostbusters...he's was nice:)&lt;br /&gt;brett is a wicked nice guy....he was always saying hi and stuff so he's cool&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;well i can't wait for them to come back in 3 years:)..!&amp;gt;!&amp;gt;!!!!!...so yeah&lt;br /&gt;comment!!!!!:)</content>
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    <title>young americans are comeing to town!!!:)</title>
    <published>2005-09-28T00:56:41Z</published>
    <updated>2005-09-28T00:56:41Z</updated>
    <lj:music>lion king:)</lj:music>
    <content type="html">ok..so i went to pick up my lil sis at her young americans rehersal tonight..it was fantabulouse..yes we need to bring back that word:)...haha...so yeah..&lt;br /&gt;the young americans and the whole performance was awesome!:)..it looks so good...cn't wait to see the show tomorrow:)!!....so if anyone wants to go tell me:)...i'll come with you instead of the family:)...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so yeah..i'm wicked pumped for it.....today i was mad tho cuz i was gonna go to nikas volleyball game but i didn't think anyone was going so i was gonna try and go thurs. really quick....then nika comes home and tells me the whole football eam went so yeah, that sucked...i should have went anyways but o well&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so yeah...mostly boring stuff other than that...&lt;br /&gt;comment please:)!</content>
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